When I was younger I had a dream that I would one day grow up and be a tall, blonde singer. The kind of girl that would make guys go weak in the knees, and would literally have a standing ovation when she walked in the room. My childhood dreams overruled my life as I constantly day dreamed of future looks and talents that I would have. Back then, I had big dreams for myself. Did any of it happen? No.
Glad to say, my hair color stayed the same throughout my life, (well, except for occasional dying... But I've stopped that) and I didn't turn out to be as tall as everyone thought I would be. Psh, I mean, who needs to be a 5'9' beach blonde, anyway? ;)
Looking back on my life, though, I wouldn't change a thing about it. So maybe I didn't accomplish all those dreams I had, but if I did, would it have made me happy? I look at all those famous people out there with their fancy car, and expensive clothes, and I can't help but pity them. They lead a life of criticism, lies; and for what? A little luxury? Even looking at some of the girls in my high school. They're popular, extremely hot, cute personalities, flirtatious... Yet, not even they look happy. Walking down the halls I find myself feeling bad for that girl that has a new boyfriend every other day. She might have a perfect looking face, but behind her eyes is a pain that can't be described. Being surrounded by approving gazes, and being fawned over constantly hasn't brought her joy. She goes out every night, parties, but when she wakes up, she has to face that perfect image in the mirror. What she sees, though, isn't perfect. You can tell by the way she looks when no one is around, the way she holds herself like she is trying to keep all the pieces from falling apart. What seems to be a perfect life is really the cause of all the pain. Yet, she continues to make the same choices. Surrounding herself with the same people, letting go like she always does. All in hopes that someday it might all fill the void in her life.
I have to feel blessed for being the person I am. I may hold a low rank in school, but I don't need a thousand friends to feel loved. I don't need a thousand guys calling my name, or stares following my every move. No, there are other ways to feel happiness. Just the simple things like, getting a phone call when you're sick. Sitting around and laughing until you cry. Just people that are there for you. That's all I could ever ask for.
So maybe my life didn't turn out to be my childhood dream, but in my opinion what I have is much better.
:)
That was absolutely beautiful and amazing. I hardly know you at all, and I think you are incredible.
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