Only Human

Have you ever questioned your actions?
Has there ever been a time where you have decided to do something so out of the ordinary, so far above you, that you start believing that it can't be done? It seems right at the time, but when you're alone the thought starts to creep in that maybe you aren't ready for this, that maybe you aren't smart enough, or that you aren't popular enough. This could change your entire life, but is that really what you want?
Right now you go throughout your day, hiding in the shadows, keeping a low profile. Those around you think that you have no voice, no thoughts. They trample you under their feet, keeping you low in rank; but you don't mind. You tell yourself enough, to the point where you actually believe it, that you don't mind. They have their spotlight. It was never meant to be yours, so why should you try?
Then it happens... You have an opportunity to do something with yourself besides converting oxygen into carbon.
What do you do?

Last night I had a dream. In it, I was faced with the same challenge that I have in my life right now. I remember standing in front of everyone that I have ever known and every single one of them were screaming at me that I can't do it. That I have failed before I have even begun. They looked down on me as usual, and I watched as they shoved me into the shadows and rode off with the victory that I fought so hard for. They made it clear that this is not my place, that I am not welcome here.
When I woke up from my dream, the passion I had for what am fighting for was replaced with the same fear from the night. All the 'what-if's' came into my mind and I started backing into my favorite place. Under a rock.
To tell you the truth, I'm still scared about what might happen, but I started thinking about it. I started thinking of who I'm doing this for, and why.
I don't know if I will walk away from this with success, but I do know one thing: Exactly one year ago I made a commitment to myself and those around me, that even if it's just one, I want to touch someone's life. It has taken a while to understand this, but I can't accomplish this when I'm under a rock, out of sight.

I'm not sure if this post even makes sense. Right now everything seems a little confusing...  But hey, thanks for listening, anyway. :)